life as what it seems

"But falling over you   is the news of the day   And love will not fade away" - by Counting Crows   I'm in love with this song. And every time i hear it, i seem to fall in love. It brings me back to those years when I was still very idealistic on the concept of "love".  When i believed that love would just be the same as those stories you read from Sweet Dreams or whatever (note: i have never read any Judith McNaught (?) book). But i'm not going to talk about love, because no matter what some people think, i am not, even the least of an expert on the subject of love. :p My point is how we all used to think so simply and not know much about real life. Before, i have always viewed everything as what it seems (despite the saying); what you see is what you get.   And now, when everything gets hectic and as complicated as your brain can handle, my escape is to get back to those times.  It's pretty fun to remember the "problems" I used to have and now laugh on just how silly it was. And it's quite comforting to think that someday, i will just laugh on the so-called "problems" i'm dealing with now. (sa mga concerned: don't worry, wala naman talaga akong seryosong problema ngayon e. hehe!)   It's funny how human nature works. When i was young, i can't wait to be all grown-up.  And now that i have quite grown, i sometimes wish that everything would just be as simple as before. Makes me wonder when will i become contented with life.  

busy bee

Been very busy lately, though i haven't really accomplished much of what i should have done. I was just given new responsibilities and so i ended up neglecting my previous project. Work sucks!   Anyway, now I discovered that blogger was updated. Better looking, i think.

nostalgic attack

Every day when I arrive in the office, the very first application I open is Winamp. It is on auto-play, shuffle mode and the loaded playlist contains all the songs in my MP3 folder. So this morning, the first song I heard was “American Junk” by Apo Hiking Society. Ok, so this may not be the type of song that would make anyone nostalgic. The beat, the lyrics, the song itself; they were just not right. But it did. This is one of the songs that would make me miss high school. Definitely, high school year were the best years of my life (and fourth year will be the best among the four). And so, I’ve thought about those songs that will never fail to remind me of high school. Here’s my top 10 high school songs: Songs: 1. “Hotel California” - Need I explain this? Ok, for those who don’t remember (kung meron man), two words: fair, amado. 2. “Vulnerable” by Roxette – I used to really like this song during 2nd year and so every time I hear it, I remember 2nd year. Haha! And I can still hear Basuel singing with it, “like china in japan…” 3. “Hilo” by Rivermaya – Amado’s interpretative dance. I can’t even remember mine, but I remember his. Never fails to bring a tear in my eye. 4. “Semi-Charmed Life” – During the time this song was so popular, all the bands (except Invictus of course) wanted to play it for the upcoming SAMAPI concert. But they were all thinking that the other bands might play it. So it ended up that no band played this song. 5. “Got to Believe in Magic” and “King and Queen of Hearts” – the ultimate prom songs 6. “Lea” by Toto– I just can’t forget it when Jonas sang it during SAMAPI’s Retro concert. Very nice. 7. “The Bomb” – the song we danced to in 3rd year, awakened my love for dancing and prompted me to create SAGALA. Does anyone know the title of the other song we danced to? Chinese ata yun or something e… 8. “Just Take My Heart” by Mr. Big – By 4th year, Invictus finally had the guts to play this in a concert. My favorite piece of ours. 9. “Beauty and Madness” by Fra Lippo Lippi – waah!! I miss Oliver’s piano playing. And jem singing with it. Hehe! 10. "Last Dance” – ok, I’m not sure about this; I think this was the last song played during Grad Ball. If not, I’m just definite this was played during grad ball. By the way, songs from Eraserheads 1st and Circus album were not included here, because they will already fill the list. Also not included are the songs from Parokya ni Edgar's Khang Khung Hernitz and Burugudunstuystugudunstuy albums. I've long before associated these albums to high school. *** Add: Included in my top ten: "Sana ay Mahalin Mo Pa Rin Ako" by April Boys. Yes, april boys: sobrang baduy. But the sampa boys, led by Marc Basuel have a very cute rendition of it, you just can't help but like it. Like i told Jae, I like this song, but haven't heard it for a long time so i kinda forgot about it. Hmm... maybe i should download it. Hehe! thanks for the reminder, jae.

dreams

"paano ka tatama kung di ka tataya?" - Ted Hannah by Parokya ni Edgar I usually have trouble sleeping at night. It's because my body is still used to sleeping very late and waking up very late too. haha! Anyway, to lull me to sleep, i usually think of something.. a dream actually. It's rare that I think seriously about life, it would only make me lose more sleep. My dreams would always be something nonsense, pure imagination. :) My favorite dream is getting rich, actually winning in the lottery (instantly becoming rich). This dream was inspired by a story of my roommate wherein she had an officemate who won 100 million pesos in Lotto. This officemate of hers bought a house and lot in wack-wack village, a bmw car, and immediately resigned in his job as a phonebanker. What's quite irritating is, his (my housemate's officemate) family are already rich to start with. Argh!! That money could have gone to other less fortunate people... Well anyway, I'll usually dream about this; what would i do if I have a 100 million pesos? =D So here's what I've "decided" so far on what to do with "my money": 1. I'll have my father retire from work so he and my mother could tour around the world, just how they dreamed to do it. Guess, I'll give them 8 million for now. Of course, i could always give them more money afterwards. 2. I'll buy a house and lot for my brother and his family, and another car if he wants to. Then maybe give them additional 4 million to spend and save for my nephew's education. Knowing my brother and being the "kuripot" that he is, he'll spend his money wisely. 3. My sister is too young to give her money, so maybe i'll just buy her a new phone and computer (maybe a laptop since she's a journalist). And/or maybe a car, then give her a 2 million account. I'll trust her with more money once she grows up more. 4. For myself, I'll buy a condo here in makati, a house and lot in tagaytay, and a SUV (i'm not very fond of cars). Then shop for furnitures and clothes (yes lately, i prefer to buy furniture than clothes). So I estimate and hope to be spending about 40-45 million for these. Let's say I still have 60 million, this I will use for business and charity. But this is the part I usually start falling asleep and never really get to decide. But partly, I've decided to buy a "Jollibee" franchise, because I'm sure this will be quite profitable for a long time. And also, I want to have the church in my hometown renovated, just like the one i used to go to here in makati: 2 floors, air-conditioned. For charity, I want to either have a hospital or school. Of course, either of these will be free for the poor. But I want them to have the most advanced equipments that the rich will want to go there too. And to go there, they have to invest or pay, and maybe that's where i'll get more money to finance it. For business, I haven't decided yet if I want a KTV House, an IT company, or something else. They have to be interesting though... for me. Hehe! "paano ka tatama kung di ka tataya?" - Ted Hannah by Parokya ni Edgar This is my favorite dream. I usually think about it, too often in fact that there was a moment I believed it was real. I wanted it to be real too, who wouldn't? And then, I heard this song, heard this line. Immediately, I remembered this dream. It's fun to think about things like these, but I'm still too lazy to even place a bet. It's because I usually think it's very improbable to win in the lottery. But it's not just this dream. I usually think about achieving something, but I don't do anything to get it. I don't like taking risks and usually, improbable things like this feels to be just a waste of time. That's why I usually ponder over this line. It's right, I know. Di ko lang talaga kayang gawin.

a theme of sorts

I've decided to put a not-so-theme in this blog. It won't be strict, but most of the time, it will be the center of my "rantings". Or maybe not the center, just connected... haha! ang labo! basta ganun, ok? Anyway, it's just that I always have some song in my head. Or sometimes, a line from a song will get stuck and makes me think about something in life. haha! baduy ba? Basta, this is how it will be from now on. This blog is for my rantings in life and that song i can't get out of my head. Of course, this post and the other 2 before it are exempted from the theme. (Para lang makaiwas sa mga pilosopo.)