can't sleep

my sleeping pattern is so messed up. it started last week when i kept staying up late (my own fault really), and then having to wake up early to be not late for work. i'm really making an effort this time to not be late. that and i usually have meetings scheduled at 9 or 10 in the morning. and then on Friday night, my friend Lino brought his Rockband to the apartment. we played until 5 or 6 in the morning so i slept until 2p in the afternoon. and that's what did it for my body clock. right now i feel like it's only around midnight, but the sun is about to come out soon. ----------------------------------------- so Lino was willing to lend me his Rockband until next weekend. i think this is his way of convincing me to buy one also, so he can borrow another guitar when he needs one. hehehe! but that is fine with me! i played so much drums this night though that my hand is sort of swollen. maybe i'll just play the guitars next time. ----------------------------------------- anyway, the reason i've been staying up late these past few days is because of a guy... he sure can dance, he plays the piano, he can be silly and funny, and he writes. i'm not in love WITH him. but it's the idea of him that i am in love with (does that make sense to you? i hope so.) but it makes me wonder if people like him grow on this side of the world. for some reason it makes me think of that line Jae quoted on his blog: "the world is too big for love to be real." so i'm becoming more cynical and believing in it more every day. hehehe! ----------------------------------------- anyway, i'm starting to lose the ability to type, and think. or maybe the typing is due to the swollen fingers. but that's it for now. i will lie down, try to sleep, and think if i should move to California, in that order. good night (or morning) world!