i'm changing my life

Somewhere along the way, i lost my sense of purpose. I have no place to go, and no deadlines to meet. And now that i've acknowledged that i temporarily have no worth in this world, i decided to change my life. Sometimes i scare myself...

fears --> topic list #2

Don't you sometimes think that kids are much braver than adults? You see, during my younger days, i never learned to do cartwheels nor to swim. I was too afraid to bump my head or drown. It's crazy, but these are two of the things i feel necessary to know in this life. And it seems that as i get older, my used-to-be minimal fears keeps growing (like fear of heights, rats, etc). I admit it, i'm a grown-up coward. And i need a cure for it. Of course, rats or bumping of my head would be the least frightening in my list. My greatest fear is brought about my selfishness and vanity. Just thinking of the possibility it could happen throws me deep down the hole of depression. And I'm so sad because of the things that are happening in my life right now, the chance it might happen just grows bigger. As much as i want to, i can never say nor talk about my greatest fear. The effect of doing so would be like going back to the past and changing something, even a minor detail.

tama yan, mag-aral kang mag-drive

So for the past weeks, i've been asking some of my friends to set me up on a blind date. (in case you wanna ask, i just want to MEET new people. not yet interested in a relationship, probably til June. hehe!) So a few nights ago, my friend Lorie asked me if it'll be ok for me to date her boyfriend's friend named Pedro (i was instantly interested because of his name. I mean, may tao palang Pedro ang pangalan sa totoong buhay?!) She went on saying how handsome Pedro is and how he's got a great body. But then she said, "kaso lang, wala syang kotse". Just to let you guys know, i still said ok (pero di pa natutuloy yung date and i doubt my friend took me seriously. hehe!), kahit na wala syang kotse and hindi porke gwapo at maganda DAW ang katawan nya. Puede naman kasi kaming mag-taxi di ba? :D

jae, jam and others...

di ko pa rin gets sino si "patty laurel". sino na kasi?!

random thoughts

i miss blogging. i meant to catch up soon, but i just have no time. or when i start to write something, it always ends up as a draft. i just want you guys to know i'm still stalking your blogs up to a certain level. don't even have the time to comment! argh!! btw jam, definitely a 6230, just in case you haven't gotten it yet. :) ----------- blog topics list: 1. my birthday celeb (one month later...) 2. fears 3. tribute to the greatest team ----------- what's on my mind (for the past weeks): "if you don't move on, the rest of the world will..." ----------- farewell to my friends thought i'd leave you all behind my time is running and i'm about to lose my mind again now and then, i tremble all over but i wont carry the load upon my shoulder but i know this could all be over if only i could open my eyes is it loneliness? maybe emptyness.. maybe melancholy.. have a piece of this... - Piece of this by POT