blah!

i know i know, my recent posts have been ma-drama. Just can't get this heavy quarter-life shit off my back. And this post may really be still ma-drama. Things have been so messed up at work, it's growing unto me. One of my office friends told me how it's just work and it shouldn't be stressing me as much. But all i can think about is how to keep this team together even when everybody's been demotivated... even me. I wish i have some love life to talk about like Jam. Hihi..! Now i know that can be pretty stressful but that's good stress! blah! (and for the nth time Movids, i'm not dating Pedro, ok? Get over it... :p) how do you separate the place from the people? during the last days of high school, i often said how i'll miss pisay so much. and Mark would say he'll miss the people, and not really pisay. i agreed. but every time i visit pisay, how come it still smells like home? i learned to love my teammates at work. but now with 2/3 of the team already gone, things have never been the same. we died. and here i am, trying to raise the dead! what is wrong with me?! i know i had to, but it's been so hard to move on. I just really hate it when people touch and go. and oh yeah, my punctuality is being questioned. well, i really don't know what's the question for when "punctual" does not even apply to me at work. they want me to come before 9am when like right now, it's 2am and i'm still in this shit hole. sigh, how do you become a morning person? If only i have a technical boss... I am on my way down the "wheel of life". I just want to know when i'll start going up again...