to the last 7 years

i learned how to be apathetic, to care for no one but yourself, to ignore change, to take what matters most for granted, to forget and to be really unhappy. i learned how to love, to be in love, to give all you can give, to be more patient and understanding, to listen and shut up, to lower my pride (way way down), to forgive, to let go.

i learned that some friendship can survive unimaginable disasters and some end over very simple and little disagreements.

i learned that i am not special, important and popular as much as i thought i was. i learned that i cannot give and not expect anything in return. i ask for recognition, appreciation and attention. i learned to be more stupid, to listen to what my heart feels over what my head thinks. i learned to look past the surface and accept people for what they are truly worth. but there are people who act out of how they think people see them and end up denying the person they can be. i learned that despite of all self-worth and confidence i acquired, i still care of what other people think. i learned that "firsts" (first kiss, first commitment and relationship, first hurt, etc.) are overrated. waiting and "saving" them is a waste of time. once you feel it's right time, go for it. i learned that love is blind and stupid, but it cannot conquer all.