random odd thought

no, i'm not being emo. maybe a bit morbid but not emo. but i was just thinking the other day and i realized that this is the best time for me to die. i think that i have done ok with my life so far. maybe i did not do anything exceptional, and i have not really accomplished everything that i have dreamed of as a child. but still, none of those things that i have not done makes my life less worthy. and even if i have not done those, i still don't regret it. maybe that is also why i haven't done them yet. they are just things that i can live with and without. they don't really matter that much. i have worked hard enough, and earned enough to live in a bit of luxury. though the most expensive thing i own is probably my bed/phone/iPod, i don't mind. i was happy spending on stuff i like and love -- giving gifts or spending for my family and friends, buying items on a whim, spending money to collect my DVDs and books, eating great-tasting food, etc. also, i like what i've accomplished so far with regards to my career. i have not changed the world or how the world communicates, stuff like that -- but i feel like i have already contributed something recognizable. and most specially, i am single. no, i'm not saying that i want to die because i am single. what i just mean is that i am not responsible for anyone who can't be taken care of by anyone else. my family have each other, and my friends have their significant others and/or better friends than me. if i had my own family already, specially children, i definitely cannot afford to die. i wouldn't let myself die. i guess, i am just saying that for the first time in a long time (or maybe ever?), i am not afraid to die. and seriously, it's a liberating feeling. :)

Surviving the Urbanathlon

yes, i am still alive! i would like to share with all of you my greatest physical achievement for the year, that is finishing the Urbanathlon! What is the Urbanathlon? Well basically, it's a 10 kilometer run/race plus 2 laps (except for the wall) of obstacle course. The obstacle course includes overcoming four 4.5-foot high marine hurdles, climbing 4 pickup trucks, walking through a 4-feet long 4-inch thick wooden plank, "jumping" over four 3-foot high barricades and finally, conquering an 8-foot wall. and yes, i came out alive, it's a miracle! many many thanks to my teammates who helped me throughout the race. i wouldn't be able to climb that wall and marine hurdles without you. for my officemates and grish for the cheers and support. and especially to mapet for being our official photographer and producing "proof" of our greatest achievement up to date. :) below, a step-by-step guide on how to climb an 8-foot wall. prerequisite though: 3 grown men!

step 1: hold the rope and put your feet up.

step 2: everyone, push!

step 3: hold on for dear life!

step 4: get reinforcement at the top.

step 5: for someone with no upper body strength like me, have someone clamp your feet over the wall, and another one to boost you up through your other leg. requirement though, a bit of flexibility or high tolerance for pain.

step 6: for someone who just went through much pain, rest a bit at the top.

step 7: climb down.

step 8: put both feet on the ground. ta-da!!!

yey! and we crossed the finish line together. that is team building for you! :)

all posted pics here and in my multiply are from mapet. thanks mapet! :)