anticipation

I can't wait for Han and Mark's baby! It's going to happen later or tomorrow (deadline na bukas di ba?). Take care you guys! i love you! mark, dont forget to call me ASAP, ok? :P Update: (june 30, 11am) I just called mark and he said they are on their way to the hospital. I'm so excited i cannot work anymore. i'm thinking of how i'm going to get there and calling people who can go with me. Please pray for Han and Baby Samuel for a safe delivery. :D

two lies and a truth

A. Trivias 1. I get involved with at least one guy every year since 1st year high school. 2. I had a fling with a guy i just met when i was in Phuket, Thailand. 3. I'm attracted to boys pretending to be men. B. On falling 1. The first time i fell was with a guy in college who can't love me back. 2. I had my first kiss before my first boyfriend. 3. I am currently "in love". C. On "letting go" 1. I regret "losing" the guys who loved me during high school. 2. I broke up with my ex because my friends did not approve of him. 3. The only way i can get over a guy is to meet a new guy. Great game, guys. And it was especially good with the booze. I'm recommending it to all my drinking buddies. Hehe! Anyway, I posted this not for you to guess which ones are true. I just want to bond with you! More or less you'll learn something new about me with this blog, right? Just keep your guesses to yourself, ok? :)

i'm fine

nagpapakaramdam lang. masyado nang matagal since i last updated and checked my friends' blogs. buhay pa ko. and forget about the past blogs, i'm fine na. :)

blah!

i know i know, my recent posts have been ma-drama. Just can't get this heavy quarter-life shit off my back. And this post may really be still ma-drama. Things have been so messed up at work, it's growing unto me. One of my office friends told me how it's just work and it shouldn't be stressing me as much. But all i can think about is how to keep this team together even when everybody's been demotivated... even me. I wish i have some love life to talk about like Jam. Hihi..! Now i know that can be pretty stressful but that's good stress! blah! (and for the nth time Movids, i'm not dating Pedro, ok? Get over it... :p) how do you separate the place from the people? during the last days of high school, i often said how i'll miss pisay so much. and Mark would say he'll miss the people, and not really pisay. i agreed. but every time i visit pisay, how come it still smells like home? i learned to love my teammates at work. but now with 2/3 of the team already gone, things have never been the same. we died. and here i am, trying to raise the dead! what is wrong with me?! i know i had to, but it's been so hard to move on. I just really hate it when people touch and go. and oh yeah, my punctuality is being questioned. well, i really don't know what's the question for when "punctual" does not even apply to me at work. they want me to come before 9am when like right now, it's 2am and i'm still in this shit hole. sigh, how do you become a morning person? If only i have a technical boss... I am on my way down the "wheel of life". I just want to know when i'll start going up again...

i'm changing my life

Somewhere along the way, i lost my sense of purpose. I have no place to go, and no deadlines to meet. And now that i've acknowledged that i temporarily have no worth in this world, i decided to change my life. Sometimes i scare myself...