Sunday, August 14, 2005
this could be a little freaky...
... but do you ever think about how you want to die?
i've always hoped that when i die, i'll die young, meaning young enough to NOT have my own children yet. and if by some miracle, i finally have my own family, i hope that i'll die old enough to see my kids grow and have their own families.
if you know me, you'll know my greatest dream is to be a home maker. and probably, it's because my mom was a plain good housewife and the 3 of us grew (well, you could make your own conclusion) loved, disciplined, independent and able to make our own decisions. and you can yell, "what the f***?! are you crazy?!" now, but i still want my kids to be just like me.
i also want to die pretty... meaning when i die, i don't want to be burned, mutilated, bloated or any part of my body separated from the rest. maybe it would be great to die of natural causes, but that means i have to be really old. so if i have to die young, maybe a heart attack or something fast will be best.
and i want to know when i'll die. i want to be prepared. i want to pick the clothes i'll wear in my funeral. i want to pick the flowers. i want to say goodbye. i want to apologize to people i've hurt. i want to say i love you to the people i love.
and when i die, i want to be cremated, not buried.
i'm not afraid to die. but i am really afraid of not knowing how i am going to die.
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Hmm.. May nasulat na rin akong ganito dati, sa luma kong journal.. Pero, astig, nagawa mong i-post ito..
ReplyDeletewas tempted to write something similar... but it escaped me...
ReplyDeletehmmm... for the longest time i have this inkling that i'd die by the age of 27. don't know why...
heh. you want to die of heart attack pero gusto mo alam mo. I'd like that too. Kung pwede lang sana.
ReplyDeleteI used to want to be cremated too, but then i learned about how cremation pollutes the air at least in the way that it's done today, so parang ayoko na.
I'd rather not die.
ReplyDeleteJAm: You did post something similar... .
Yeah, not dying would be cool.. :-/
ReplyDeletei want to not die but stay youthful looking. it would be crazy not to die but appearance-wise, it looks like you should. i don't want to be Diana's human husband who was given immortality but not eternal youth -- he grew so old and senile that they had to lock him up in some tower.
ReplyDeleteIts never too early to write your last will and testament. Maybe even this entry of yours may count as a valid one. Live everyday like its your last and you'll never be caught unawares :D
ReplyDeleteloopy: ill lend you mermaid's scar sometime, its a gory immortality centered story :D
nikki and jam: too personal ata kasi yung ideas nyo on dying e. ;)
ReplyDeletepara bang yung kay joan? wanna die in someone's arms? :P
mark, oo nga noh pollution. sana when i die, may naisip na silang solution.
cel, loopy, bry, immortality is cool only when the you have immortal friends too. :P
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ReplyDeletewhy don't we just invite death to go inside the black sack...ÜÜÜ
ReplyDeletewhoa jam, pareho tayo. for the longest time (as in since high school) i thought that i'd probably die by age 27. or maybe 28.
ReplyDeleteimagine that..
patayin ko kayo jan eh. hehe.
ReplyDeletethat's true. when i'm immortal, i shall have a set of 20 dear friends immortalized too. it would get pretty lonely.
ReplyDeleteJam: Sasali ka rin ba sa 27-club nina Kurt and Janis and friends? :P
ReplyDeleteMark: A peso for your green (as in environment-friendly) thoughts :D
Che: Just lost a friend recently, 28 lang siya, pero to me it looks like he was able to live life to the fullest naman. Marami siyang na-inspire, marami siyang natulungan, marami siyang kaibigang nagmamahal sa kanya.
THAT'S how I want to die. Doesn't quite matter the manner of death (though gusto ko rin swift and as painless as possible hehe), but I'd like to go knowing that somehow I've made a difference in someone's life :)