my pre-birthday blog

in about a month, i'm turning 27. and ever since i wrote this blog years ago, and after jam and pat made those comments, becoming 27 has become the age to remember for me. ok, people might be commenting i'm becoming morbid again. but i am becoming a bit morbid because i'm turning 27 soon, and i have not been able to get that blog out of my mind. :P -------------------------------------------------- for the past 2 years, around the time of my birthday, i try to write a blog about my life. i obviously never got to finish and publish them, but they will be revealed now! february 28, 2006

"i can't believe i'm turning 25 in 2 days. i'm a quarter-of-a-century old! i always thought that by 25, i'll be accomplished, successful and content. but really, that moment seems so far away now. heck, i even thought i'll be getting married by 26. 26 years seems like a long enough time to go through relationships and find the person you can spend the rest of your life with, right?? well for some people, it might be enough. but not for me..."

march 5, 2007

"when i was about 13 years old, i planned out my life. i wanted to have my first boyfriend and first kiss at 16. it's because i wanted to have one while i'm in high school (because HS was so great and full of "kilig" moments), but i wanted to have it later in high school so i won't get "distracted". i didn't even take into consideration that we might end up in different universities. i wanted to be an engineer. i wanted to have that title placed before my very long name. i wanted to work "in the field" and not be stuck in an office all day. i wanted to accomplish something, and come up with a product that would change or deeply impact people's lives. then, i planned on getting married at age 26, and have my first kid when i'm 28. and i was also hoping that i'll marry my first boyfriend. but of course, we have to break up first, then i'll have 2 more other boyfriends, and then i'll meet first boyfriend again and fall in love again. then i'll quit my job to be a full-time housewife and live happily ever after. yes, that was a great plan, a kid's plan. so the first boyfriend and first kiss came 5 years later, i ended up loving software instead and became a programmer (meaning no "fields" for me), and i am now 26 and still very much unattached. the old plan is not working very well as expected, what now?"

so basically, every year i rant about how my plans never worked out and my life isn't what i thought it would be. and i think i am already past that stage where i can still pick it up and continue to try to make it work. i am not sad of letting go of this dream that i had as a child. but since i am no longer looking forward to anything, i feel greatly uninspired. i just don't have to drive to prepare for a future when i do not know what kind of future i want to have. this is also why i am such a big fan of living in the present, and would also greatly explain why i have nothing saved up. :p -------------------------------------------------- well for now, my goal is to travel the country. i think it is about time i see those sights in the postcards available in our souvenir shops. hopefully at least this year, i will get to see:

1. Banawe Rice Terraces
2. Mayon Volcano
3. Chocolate Hills of Bohol
4. Palawan

i need a travel buddy though. anyone interested? :)