little miss sunshine

nope, this is not an attempt to write a review. i just want to say that i love this movie very much and i would love to watch it again. and that i am recommending this movie to everyone who enjoys a bit of comedy and a bit of drama with lots of character. i hope you'll enjoy it as much as i did. now hurry! the ayala malls may only be showing it until tomorrow! :)

apartment-hunting

i'm apartment/condo-hunting once again. so in 3.5 years of working in makati, i'm already looking for my 4th residence. i'll be giving up our Kingswood condo. My sister, who was supposed to be my other flatmate, is going to work in Libis and you know how far that is! so ET can't stay with us too. Also, he's getting married anyway next year. it would just be like postponing my "real" problem for another year. so there, i've decided to get a solo place and live alone (then i'll get a phone and broadband connection so i won't feel so lonely). problem is, everything here is so darn expensive!!! my office is near the salcedo village area and so i DARED inquire there. well, the cheapest one I saw is a 1-br unit for 20k pesos. that's not even furnished! and my max budget is only half of that. i was even hoping i could find a rent-to-own unit with that price. *sigh* anyway, please help! if there's anyone who knows of a studio or 1-br apartment/condo in the makati area, please give me a heads up. i'm starting to get desperate as i'm sure i have to move out before the end of the month. and now, i won't even be able to afford to stay in a cheap condotel. i wish we have some sort of housing allowance or company housing. but that is definitely impractical since most of my officemates live in metro manila. or i wish i have a friend or relative who has a place here in the area but doesn't really live here. and they'll let me live in their place just so someone can take care of it, cleaning or maintaining it. i wish!!! huhuhuh....

sick and other things

i catched something last monday afternoon which cost me two days off work. you think some people would be happier to miss work, but i just felt so terrible that i'd rather be at the office than be sick at home. i just got back yesterday, still feeling a bit terrible. My throat hurts (you know that cold that is just starting and is still in your throat?? grrr..) and my head too for oversleeping (well, what do you do if you're sick?!?). I was constantly hungry since Tuesday, but i had no appetite, (which is why i was constantly hungry). Besides, i cannot swallow food very well because of the ball of phlegm in my throat. And so, you might have guessed.... i already lost 6 pounds (... or maybe more!). anyway, i feel so much better now. i ate some spicy food which helped "release" my cold. and the "ball" in my throat is probably reduced to a fourth of it's original size now since i've already spent 2 rolls of tissue for blowing my nose. well, the only downside is, my nose hurts and it's red (just in time for christmas! i can be rudolph!). --------------------------------------------------- my officemates were joking that i probably got sick from eating too much Krispy Kremes... hehehe! yep, the Krispy Kremes everyone is talking about. last Saturday, Allen and I fell in line, for only 20 minutes, to know what is the big deal with those 30-peso donuts. well, i was meaning to get a dozen, to try several flavors. and i was thinking of buying only 2 pieces of the original glazed ones. Allen wanted 6 pieces only of assorted donuts. but everything changed when we got near the cashiers area.... you see there's this person who is giving free original glazed donuts to everyone in line (well, once you get near her, she's not walking around, mind you). all i can say, the glazed ones is worth the 30-peso price! it was really good, sorta melts in your mouth but not really... well, can't describe it! :) so Allen and I got a dozen of the original-glazed donuts and another dozen of assorted ones (and we split them). i think the girl who was serving us was a bit annoyed since we were suddenly at lost as to which donuts to get. anyway, here's the assorted ones we got, they look great, right? the 3 donuts on the left-most column are "crullers". they're kinda hard so i didn't like them. the middle one on the second column from the left is Caramel Kreme Crunch.. it was great!! until i get to the part of the donut with the caramel-filling... it was too sweet, even for me. and i guess that is where i got the "ball" in my throat. hehehe! for the last two columns, they were Allen's share so i dunno what his experience was. i haven't tried the rest (uh-oh!), because i was sick and i didn't feel like eating anything sweet (see, i was really sick). so, *sigh*, i think i wasted some of the donuts... who would want to eat almost-a- week-old donuts???? :( --------------------------------------------------- hmmm.. i am looking for another flat-mate... or maybe another apartment if i can't get one. my current flat-mates decided that they can't stay anymore... so there. (i don't really know why the wind suddenly blew on the opposite direction, but no hard feelings). anyway, i needed two people. i already got ET on board... i need another one... and i need to find that other one, or another apartment, before the end of the month. anyone interested??? please please please!!! if you're wondering why i'd rather stay than find a new apartment... well, it's because of the ameneties. with the rent, i can get free use of the gym and the pool (which i intend to really use this time now). anyway, if you also know of an apartment in the Salcedo-Makati area where i can have my own room and free use of the pool and gym, which will cost me less than 9k a month, please just point me to the people i need to talk to. thanks! --------------------------------------------------- Blogger just offered me the option to switch to Blogger Beta.. so apparently, i don't have to leave pisay98 blog anyway. yey!

blogging again

well, obviously, a lot of things happened in the last few weeks... took a one-week leave last Oct 30 (until Nov 3) and had 9-days of well-deserved relaxation. problem is, my body seemed to adapt to my "vacation-schedule" so that when i got back to work, i was late for 4 consecutive days (ouch!). i felt so guilty i've been trying to make up for it (meaning, trying to be not late) since then. i bought some of Jonas' Sleepasil and popped one of those when i'm still wide awake by 2am. i'm just happy that it seems to be working for me. however i also hope that they have a Wake-asil or something of that sort so i can learn to be up and about by 8am. ------------------------------------------- i managed to find a "lot" of movie-buddies and so i'm happy that i haven't missed any of the big movies (or at least movies i wanted to watch) lately. for the last two months, i've seen The Departed, World Trade Center, The Prestige, Marie Antoinette, Casino Royale, and Happy Feet. anyway, they are already showing Borat... anyone interested to watch it with me?? :) ------------------------------------------- a lot of people are coming back for the holidays... and of course, i've been trying to plan/organize a get-together for/with them. not to mention that i'm also cooking up several "christmas parties" for my different sets of friends. and remember that i am still squishing bugs. where will i find the time to do my christmas shopping when i cant even begin to think of what to buy for who (or is it "whom"?) as well... anyway, i hope everything goes well.. I LOVE DECEMBER!!! ------------------------------------------- advice: if you dont have time to buy things for your friends and family, then buy something for yourself. i got my own baby as well, weheheheehe!! :D ------------------------------------------- to be continued....

daily routines that makes you sad, part 1

three websites i open everyday once i get to sit down in my office cube:

1. Google Reader
2. Gmail
3. BUGZILLA!!!

bug fixing everyday.. when will they all be gone??? "you are the reason i wake up each passing day: i see you in the buglist, in my dreams; i have to wake up." - fave quip of the week

the choice

should i leave the pisay 98 blog just so i can switch to blogger beta?? hahahahah!

high school life, oh high school life...

early this week, i "re-watched" the anime, Azumanga Daioh. I've seen it about 4 years ago and i remember liking it back then. Azumanga Daioh is about the life of 6 high school girls who are... well, going through high school. It is very funny, very addicting and very catchy. i assure you that you'll fall in love with AT LEAST 3 of the main characters. anyway, after watching it again, i realized that i like it now more than i did before. watching the last episode (it only has 26 episodes) made me very sad. probably because i will miss watching it and i will miss the characters. but it is more because i realized how much i miss high school. their sports fest reminded me of our intramurals; that cheering competition and soccer game during senior year.. and the first time i played basketball back in freshman year where i always get the 3-second violation. their culture fest reminded me of the "linggo ng wika" days where we did "sabayang bigkas", "kundiman" and interpretative dance. It also made me miss that day in our 4th year, where we have to make a "live diorama". most of all, those group of friends reminded me of my girl friends from high school. each one different, each one great in their own way and each one i love. the "graduation" episode was funny, but left me with a heavy heart. watching it made me relive my own graduation day, and i remembered those old feelings i've long forgotten. well, these are things for sure: (1) until now, those 4 years in high school were still the best years of my life, and (2) Azumanga Daioh is my rediscovered favorite. whenever things get out of a hand, i'll watch it and relive the happiest days of my life.

promise, no more whining

hey *you*, you made my day. thanks for talking with me. now things are definitely looking up. bye, sweetie... ------------------------------------------ last sunday, i spent some time with hannah and my godson, sam. well, i spent SOME time with mark too, but he was late! oh well.. hehe! anyway, being the proud ninang that i am, i clicked away!

first time i've seen him sit up on his own. i know! i haven't seen him in a looong time.

hihi, syempre dapat may picture kami. :D

sam's therapy at home. nag-iiyak-iyakan na, cute pa din. he looks like a manjuu!!!

and my favorite....

sam after therapy. napagod, cute! hehehe! :D

idlip

i'm tired, sleepy, stressed and lonely. i hate this day. i wish i could sleep for a long time. "...in the arms of make-belive, sleep will set you free..." - Imago

fabulously single...?

i love being single right now. if given the right setting and the choice to get married, i would *probably* still choose to remain single, just for a little more while. there's only one problem with being single... that is you will often find yourself alone. and i hate being alone. i hate eating alone. i hate going out alone. i cannot watch new movies alone. and those are just some of the things i love to do. hmm... i think i'm just watching too much "Sex and the City" lately. it's making me look for that "special" single companion. a friend who enjoys being single as much as i do, at this special time in my life. and it's hard to look for that someone when all your best friends are married, or in a long-term relationship, or trying to be "un-single". we only have these few years in life when you're not too young anymore (meaning no money) and not too old yet (meaning serious responsibilities). now what else could be fabulous about being single if no one can appreciate it with me?

learn-list #2

continued... 4. complain less (and be more patient) well, i mean verbally. i tend to overreact, get irritated and complain a lot when things don't go the way i expect them to, or want them to. i know i am not the queen of the world and "as the philosopher Jagger once said, you can't always get what you want". but despite knowing this, i still tend to make a lot of noise by speaking my mind (with biased thoughts and through offensive words). and i know i could hurt other people or worse, make them misinterpret my intentions. intentions of which, just to simply release negative emotions. i believe it is better to just rant now and be over with it than to bottle-up emotions and explode later. 5. stop being fickle-minded and contradicting myself if you can't believe that i am this, then just read #4 (and probably, my other blogs). you'll often see something like.. "well, it's like.. blah blah... BUT come to think of it.. blah blah... BUT THEN AGAIN i can't.. blah blah blah". 6. stop being judgmental (again..) i know i've been worse before, and i already learned my lesson. that's why i "stopped" being BEFORE, but now i'm relearning it again. man, i hate myself for calling some people (who i don't even know) stupid. and somehow, it slips and i say it loud and clear, before i can even try to stop myself. i mean, i don't say it to their face but i say it to other people ("nakakainis naman kasi tong si ..., ang tanga!). stressed or not, masama pa ring magsalita ng ganun. engot ko talaga. 7. be humble and accept criticism i am a very proud person... do i need to explain this? 8. be more punctual waking up early is really hard for me. but i shall try to be there on time whenever i'm needed. 9. really, really save up i just realized how lucky i am to be earning much, how some other people need more than i do and how much i really need in the future (not in the very near future, i hope) to support what i really want to be. :P

random, nonsense thoughts

my 3230 broke down last week. suddenly, for no reason at all, it refused to switch on. luckily, it was still covered by the warranty and i was able to have it fixed in nokia care. there was a problem with the software, they said, and to fix it, they had to re-flash it. now silly me, very trusting with my gadgets, never backed it up since i got it last february. so there, i lost my phonebook (my only means of keeping in touch with the "foreign" friends i met during my traveling days), my calendar notes (where i list those important moments, naks!) and my collection of Jam's haikus. hay naku, promise magba-backup na ako ngayon. anyway, if you think i don't have your number yet, please please send it to me. i would really love to stay in touch. thanks in advance! :) --------------------------------------------- for the past 2 weeks, i've been trying to decide on what phone to buy. i really want a wifi-enabled, 3G phone with a camera (kahit 1.3 megapixels lang). so far, i only have 3 choices (all from Nokia), the N91, N80 and E70. I really want the N80 but it is also the most expensive one at the moment. and it also has a 3-megapixel integrated camera which i think i won't be able to use much unless i get rid of my Sony camera. but i LOVE my Sony camera. dilemma! hay.. i never thought getting an almost-free phone can be so stressful... buti pa si buddy, panay free phones (hehe! peace buddy :p) maghintay na lang kaya ako.. kelan kaya magda-drop yung prices? --------------------------------------------- life and work have been stressful these past few months that i've been craving for a massage for the longest time. well, i got my wish last saturday. chris and i decided to try out South Spa, the spa on the ground floor of our condominium (very convenient). For 650 pesos, i got a steam bath, a moment of peace and of course, the one-hour massage from a super girl (man, she was a short and thin girl and she suddenly hoisted me up! and seriously, i was also the "smallest" client in there). anyway, it was worth it and i plan on getting another one soon. anyone else interested? :D --------------------------------------------- grabe, nami-miss ko nang mag-videoke ha!!! i think the last time i was in a videoke place was last March. seriously!! should i start worrying that maybe something might be wrong with me? hmm... --------------------------------------------- o, last na of the multi-blog.. pictures from the ContentDev semi-reunion last last week. hoy pips, kelan na ba yung totoong reunion natin?!? grabe, i miss the people of ContentDev, ibang klase kasi e!

man, i need to blog!

do i miss blogging... i mean, i've been on blogging hiatus before.. but it was different this last time. before i don't blog because i have nothing to blog and don't want to blog. but this last time, i just don't have time for it. work has literally taken over my life. i'm such a loser! waah!!! anyway, just some updates before i get back to work (sh*t!). ------------------------------------------------------ today, it's been 6 months already since this. time really flies. anyway, i didn't get a raise. just some additional tax-shield that's supposed to increase my net salary by a few thousands, or maybe just a thousand... i've yet to know. i don't know how i feel yet. definitely disappointed but i don't know how much. also, i've kinda prepared myself for this after hearing ET's story. so i'm not really shocked. but what i can say is that i really worked my butt off for the last five months (yeah 5, coz i wasn't really doing anything the first month), more than ever. and now that i'm writing this, i realized that i'm also a little bit angry. they promised bonuses though, for the projects i worked on, once they are signed, sealed and delivered. but from experience, i learned that PROMISES SUCK! and so.. well, you know... anyway again, i know that i shouldn't complain much. i know i was getting a little bit more than the other people here (stress on the little bit) for starters. so they get the raises, i dont, and we're all equal now. after all, i did say the organization here is "flat! mas flat pa sa lupa!". yet, why do i get this nagging thought, "kasalanan ko ba kung may experience na ako?". i mean, i did spend my first 1.5 working years earning less than the standard! ang gulo ko noh. balak ko na rin naman umalis dito early next year, ang dami ko pang satsat. hehe! :D ------------------------------------------------------ i met up with Jam, Allen and Luz last night, just to have dinner. ang sarap magkwentuhan. i missed my old friends so much. it's so nice to be back in that comfort zone, di ba? :) ------------------------------------------------------ i just finished watching House Season 2 (thanks mapet! :D). i can't wait for Season 3, which is about to start this September. sobrang bitin naman kasi nung season-ender e. hehe! anyway, i like this season better than the first one. well, except for Friends, i noticed that the best season of the TV shows i like is the 2nd season. Don't you agree? However, it's not like that when it come to movies. yech! ------------------------------------------------------ i've completed my Calvin and Hobbes collection. i was supposed to start on a new collection, like Sandman. But then Mapet showed me this, so i guess i'll be waiting. For now, i'll be parasiting on Chris' Fables collection which is really good, by the way. :D ------------------------------------------------------ i'll have dinner with my ex-officemates tomorrow. wala lang, dinner lang. i hope lots of people will show up. i missed their company so much. iba pa rin talaga ang ContentDev.

summer outing

since summer's over, we finally had our company outing last weekend. the good thing: i've been feeling sick since tuesday last week and i just got well in time for the outing. the bad thing: apparently, my virus was kinda contagious and i passed it on to my best buds in the office, Chris and Elmer, and so they had to miss the outing. now whenever Elmer coughs, i feel guilty. i haven't seen Chris yet... huhuh.... the not so bad thing: i also infected my other good friend, Mark. he didn't miss the outing but he can't come to work today. so far, only ex-ePLDT people in Colibria were infected. Which could mean that somebody is sabotaging us! *gasp* Nah, it's just because they're usually with me. hihih... anyway, on to the pictures!!!

the girls. obviously, we had to take a shot where it's just us. hihi!! (L-R): Kotse, April, Cheryl, Elaine and me.

i tried kayaking with Ian and Kotse. was all smile here but i was frickin' scared!!! hahah!

the "getting there" picture... getting drunk. haha! see how red we all are! clockwise from me are: Jon, Chad, Thope, Cheryl, Alex and me.

mario mark!!!

and my masterpiece:

super caloy!!! best actor si bodie, mana sa tatay, naks! ;p (hulaan nyo sino dad nya...) (L-R): April, Elaine, (my boss) Simon, Bodie and my "executive producer" Mark. hehe!

learn-list

before the year ends, i want to learn how to: 1. drive (in real-life, not just "in theory" anymore) 2. dance the tango 3. do sign language

photo blog

my Calvin and Hobbes Collection. only two more treasury books to go... The Indispensable Calvin and Hobbes, and Calvin and Hobbes Tenth Anniversary Book.

my DVD collection. the ones on top are all originals while the ones on the bottom are still... errr... copies. i already have 58 DVDs, specifically looking for 13 more, and will just keep buying.

my new addiction, Mrs. Fields Decadent Chocolate Grahams. this box contains 12 individually wrapped cookies, and (unfortunately) i can finish half of it in a day (despite having that "self-control"). no, i'm not worried about the sugar/calorie content or anything. my problem is that each box cost 210 Pesos. sigh...

the hair story

6 glasses of kurant-sprite + a singapore sling + 3am bedtime = half day half day + friday = "work, what?!?!" who: well me, of course. this is my blog, right?? :D what: the story of the hair, or haircut for that matter.

Before

at Sandilea Gig at Tavern. That's me, Sandy (of Sandilea) and Arnee. in case you're wondering, we were classmates in high school.

After

at Arnee's Gig in Bagaberde Pasay. from left to right is JC, me and Arnee.

when: Wednesday June 28, 2006 where: Basement Salon at Power Plant Mall in Rockwell (by Cris Romero) why: chris and i went to the mall to watch Superman Returns. we were there by 6PM but the earliest show time we can get is at 9:45PM. so what to do for the next three and half hours??? i've been planning to have a haircut since March this year anyway. better late than never they say. hehe! the verdict: i like it, though i'm getting a bit self-conscious about it. my hair is frizzy so i tend to check out how it looks, a lot (on PC monitors, the windows... haha!). i bought this styling cream to tame it down and it's doing a fairly good job. anyway, i plan to maintain it for the next two months or so. and i'll start letting it grow again when i get tired of putting that styling cream every morning or when i ran out it, whichever comes first.

one-liner posts

(hmm.. i think someone used that title before.. oh well...) i love Elliott Yamin.. and who wouldn't after hearing this?? sigh... *dreamy*. he should have won! really! ------------------------------ oh another celeb crush, Colin Firth! i think it's because he rarely smiles and so when i see him smile, i melt. hahah! and he's only 21 years older than me!! haha! ------------------------------ anyway... watched Sandy's Sandilea gig last last Thursday. Band's great! Watch/hear for yourself! ------------------------------ remember how i was complaining that i've got nothing to do?? well, i'm swamped now and i won't be having any social life for the next 5 weeks. ------------------------------ did i already mention that i've got a big crush on Elliott Yamin? hihi!! :D i hope he'll land a record deal and he can sing "A Song For You" in full. ------------------------------ sometimes, i wish that my "talent" is singing instead of dancing. i love to dance but you just cant dance whenever you feel like it or people will think you're crazy. ------------------------------ my (original) DVD and Calvin and Hobbes collections are growing. i'm so happy. ------------------------------ i want to have a Mark Darcy! does he exist or should i go to Britain??

memories... chuwariwap!

sa totoo lang, dapat kahapon (june 13) pa ako bibili ng camera. kasi kahapon ko lang nakuha sweldo ko. but thankfully, i decided otherwise. 'coz if not, i was gonna miss all of these... ----------------------------------- Joven and Dionne's Wedding June 10, 2006 3PM, UST

the couple after the ceremony. sorry, this was the best picture i can take. i was still trying to figure out the correct settings to use. huhu..

SAL SAs at the reception (L-R): Ryan, Britan, Brymac, Cors, Cherry, Jenny, Jessie E., Roldz, err.. GF ni Ron, Ron, Benj and Bob.

more pics here. ----------------------------------- Wehehe Get-Together for Am June 11, 2006 2PM, Kingswood Condominium

meeting place, Figaro in Robinson's Place. dumayo pa ako para makipag-meet. hehe! (L-R): Tami, Am, Cherry, Kiko, Dennis, Al and Mark.

inuman and lots of picture-taking at my place.

more pics here. ----------------------------------- Family Day! June 12, 2006 12NN, SM Makati

my very very cute pamangkin, Lance.

haba ng pila e! my younger sister, my brother, my nephew and my mom.

the sakura reward system

so when you've finally settled all your debts and you know that you're getting your salary soon, what do you do? well, what i did was burn my credit cards, with fresh charges... (damn, i suck.. self-control what??) i took advantage of the electronic sale at Glorietta and i bought this... ... for 28k (originally 34k), 0% interest over 12 months. i also bought a 1Gb Memory Card Duo which cost me another 3.5k (also on sale, usual cost is 4.2k). what's funny is, i bought this as a gift to myself for zeroing my debts. hehe! :D i have no regrets or whatsoever for getting this, even if it means i have more bills to pay again. i wanted one for so long. and just thinking of all the memories i can keep with this, it's priceless.

3rd run!!!

for those who missed it... well, they're really not letting you miss it! Tanghalang Pilipino will be showing Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal... AGAIN! this would be the 3rd chance for those who missed Eula's butt. it would be held in CCP from June 16 to June 18. if you need to get tickets, just message me. BUT make sure you'll get them! once i reserve them, you cannot cancel anymore. but then again, you can also get tickets from ticketworld. anyway, calling Jae and Urk, this is our chance! :D

random thoughts

i just recently saw Bridget Jone's Diary movie (yeah the first one). it's the first time i've seen it in full though i've seen the ending 5 times already. anyway, i just wanna say i fell in love with the movie, not to mention that i now have a terrible crush on Colin Firth. it's my new "My Bestfriend's Wedding" movie. you know that kind of movie, which at a time in your life, you can SOOOOO relate to? and just to be clear, i'm not referring to the "it's raining men" part. ----------------------------------- sometimes, i wish i could fall in love easily, or not take romantic relationships too seriously, or trust easily. problem is, i always think too hard and i always try to rationalize my emotions. i think that the more it try not to be stupid, the more stupid i get. ---------------------------------- i miss my friends, and i miss the old times.

my high school friends, my first friends and best friends.

and my not-so-sentimental but nowhere less than good friends, my college barkada.

---------------------------------- on a lighter note, i've finally been to SM Mall of Asia last Saturday with my very good friend, Dennis. taking into consideration Maco's and Dionne's blog, i wore rubber shoes, sleeveless shirts, pants and tied my hair. hmm.. i didn't think the mall was too big. but that could be because we were on the 2nd floor most of the time. the land is big though; it's got it's own park by the bay area, two car parks, and it's own rotonda with the big globe (parang universal studios) on the front. Dennis and I decided to eat in a restaurant which you wouldn't find in other malls (or so we thought). so we picked this very american and classy place, Stars and Stripes. i enjoyed my food very much, i think they were delicious and the serving's pretty big. the prices are about the same as in other american restos like Chili's or Friday's.

i ordered U.S Beef Strips with Mashed Potato. Price: 390 PhP i liked it very much. the beef was salty but it's just the way i like it. too bad i was already full just halfway through the meal. :(

Dennis had the Barbeque Pork Chops with Java Rice. Price: 300 PhP you can see he's enjoying his food very much.

so 7 hours later, 4000 pesos-less (each!) and aching legs, we decided to go home. too bad it was raining and it seems that the whole metro manila population who was in the mall, decided to leave that time too. it took us two hours to get a taxi.. grr...

me, TRYING to call taxi service. see the "globe" behind me?

my "hard work" paid off...

i woke up this morning to rush to the Makati City Hall and get my cedula (community tax certificate). what's the cedula for?? to get my back pay from e-! i remember the stories from former officemates (who resigned first) that you'll probably be shocked of how much your back pay will be, not to mention that i have dedicated 2 and a half years of "hard work" to them. Minimum would be at least your one month salary... which is not bad since it'll be twice as much of what i expected. so i got my back pay and cashed it during lunch. let's just say, it was enough to keep me smiling all day. not because i'll get to buy a lot of things with them, but because i'll finally be able to settle my credit card debts! woohoo!! :) (time to start saving!) --------------------------------- remember my new year things-to-do list?? 1. start saving money!!! thanks to "back pay"! woohoo! 2. find a new job 3. start that business we've been planning 4. learn to cook or learn wood working. 5. pay all my debts thanks to "back pay" again! woohoo! 6. choose a sport and play err.. badminton, i guess... 7. learn how to swim <- i'm getting there! :D 8. get out of luzon and go to visayas or mindanao! 9. trim! 10. take a real vacation at least i'm making my progress, right? :)

movie test for the movie buff in you...

back in ContentDev, we used to "play" this game a lot. i think it was "invented" by our number one movie buff, Anton Gustilo. it's got no name but it was really fun and pretty addicting. so i'm telling you... if you've got lots of things to do, don't play this. you've been warned! :P so here's how it goes... i'll give you the names of two actors/actresses. Try linking them by naming actors who they've shared a movie with. The catch is, they must be linked by 6 actors or less. for example... Tom Hanks <-> Tom Cruise Tom Hanks and Catherine Zeta-Jones - The Terminal Catherine Zeta-Jones and Brad Pitt - Ocean's Twelve Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise - Interview With a Vampire gets?? here, try these: 1. Charlize Theron and Renee Zellweger 2. Julia Roberts and Johnny Depp 3. Sean Penn and Jude Law 4. Natalie Portman and Keanu Reeves 5. Ben Affleck and Tom Hanks 6. Clive Owen and Mark Wahlberg 7. Gwyneth Paltrow and Robin Williams 8. Mel Gibson and Bruce Willis 9. Uma Thurman and Reese Witherspoon 10. Robert De Niro and Hugh Grant 11. Sean Connery and Pierce Brosnan (c/o ET) 12. Drew Barrymore and Drew Carey (c/o Chris) 13. Haley Joe Osment and Dakota Fanning (c/o Chris) 14. Katie Holmes and Kate Winslet (c/o Mark) 15. Jim Caviezel and Vin Diesel (hihihi...) ok... yan muna. most of those, i already know the answer. for some, i'm not even sure if they share a movie together or if they can be linked at all. but there's no such thing as only one answer in this game. so just try it and enjoy! :) edit: dahil kay Maco na di maka-gets, papaalala ko lang, NO CHEATING!!! (or else, you ruin the game) :P

MY point of view

before you read what i have to say, please remember that i am not ridiculing you and what you believe in, in whatever manner. i just want to share my 2 cents on all these Da Vinci code and church matters. i just finished reading the book "The Da Vinci Code" about 3 weeks ago. long after i heard of the comments on how "good" it was and/or how "evil" it was... i read the book simply because i wanted to understand the movie when i watch it. (if you've ever watched a heavy movie with me, you'll know how often i ask "ano daw?". may pagkabingi rin ako e. :P). anyway, my point is that i didn't read the book because i'm having problems with my faith and i want answers. last friday, an officemate emailed this article with the note "This is a good reading to help us understand and prepare us on how we should take the Da Vinci Code book and movie.". of course, the "should" word offended some of the email recipients. look, i can be open-minded and i was when i read the article. and i believe in God despite the many questions i have in mind. i am also aware of the politics surrounding our religion. but some of the points presented in this article doesn't make sense, offending to women like me and (pardon my choice of words) just downright ridiculous.

"...this book that claims to exalt women has only three female characters, one of whom is an empty-headed shill for the multiple haughty male characters who have to teach her everything she knows, another of whom is described as an overweight cultic prostitute and the third is a liberal nun who is brutally murdered in a church. Like the purveyors of the culture of death, Brown pays lip service to women’s wellbeing while writing them into his script as dodos, prostitutes and fodder for male violence." "...Brown uses an actual satanic ritual to promote his idea that his pagan religion is holy and something that the wicked Catholic Church has unjustly persecuted for centuries... Brown is a master of this demonic twisting...The ritual in question is called hiéros gamos (which he translates as “sacred marriage”) ...Now think of the terrible perversion that is going on here. What Dan Brown calls an ancient pagan “sacred marriage” ceremony, is nothing other than a perverse mockery of holy matrimony depicted in living color in the pages of his book. I can’t describe it or read the passage without offending my own deepest values, but I can say that if this act was “sacred” it was only so to the devil..." "...for a book which purports to exalt “the divine feminine,” the three female characters in this book are all empty handmaidens for Brown’s main agenda which is to exalt paganism and destroy our faith. There is only one main female character...This stands in marked contrast to the many well-developed male characters (whether good or evil) which Sophie has to compete against for attention in the book. Saunière, her grandfather and the curator of the Louvre, Langdon the symbologist, Teabing the guru and Rémy his butler, Fache the Captain, Collet the Lieutenant, Silas the evil albino, Bishop Aringarosa the Opus Dei prelate, even Vernet the Swiss Bank president and several other male figures get all Brown’s best literary efforts! Poor little Sophie is clearly a second class citizen in Brown’s make-believe world. Sophie makes her debut in the book with a grand entry into the crime scene at the Louvre. She is young and attractive, looking like a million bucks strolling down the long corridors and exercising her supposedly-superior intelligence to engineer a brilliant escape from the cops. After that, however, Sophie becomes a puppet. She loses any independent thinking function and spends the final 350 pages or so expressing profound thoughts like, “Really? I didn’t know that!” and “Gee, I guess I had it all wrong.” This is part of Brown’s de-construction of her brain and re-programming with all the demonically-correct thoughts and concepts to make her into the perfect little pagan girl that he wants her to be..."

it seems to me that it is this article who keeps calling women "airheads". but then again, it's just me. i know that a lot of people can be easily swayed by words (or money.. but that's another story..). and there could be people out there who revoked or questioned their faith after reading the book, despite knowing that the book is fictitious. the people who condemn the book and upcoming movie believe that mankind must be "saved" from a wrong belief. that's why they must not read the book or see the movie because they could be "lost". then again, there are also people who thinks that this book/movie will be the way to cleanse the Christian community of those who are not worthy (hmmm.. maybe that's too strong a word...) or those "people whose faith is shallow" (see Faye's Blog). personally, i agree; this makes more sense. as a Christian, let me just share MY thoughts on this matter of the "book corrupting the minds of Christians" and "putting the faith in a very wrong light"... you see, even before i read the book, i already thought of these:

• i know that the Bible is a product of man, as are other religion's book of faith. i understand that it has been "modified" as it was translated to multiple languages. it has also been "filtered" so that those who read it will not be confused. but it is a work that is subject to interpretation and its "true meaning" will be different and personal for each person who reads it.
• i believe that Jesus Christ is divine and He is the Son of God. but i also know that He was once human. He was a Great Man. if He did marry someone or had a family, i really won't mind. that won't make Him less divine and that won't change my faith in Him.
• if Jesus had children, and they had children and so... that doesn't mean that they are, by default, also holy like Jesus.
• God gave humans the gift of free will. it is man's choice to have faith or not. so you cannot force people to have faith. faith will come to them once their hearts and souls are touched.
• religion only helps you to stand on your feet. but your personal relationship with the Lord and God is what will nurture your faith and beliefs.

so, i guess what i'm saying is that the Church should not fuss so much or go out of their way to keep telling Christians to NOT "listen" to the Da Vinci Code. i think they can "save" more faiths by preaching the Good News of the Lord and His greatness. i mean, if i want to hear/know how corrupt our government is, or who to vote in the upcoming elections, i wouldn't go to church and hear it from the priest's homily... i'd read the news.

SPOILER!!!!

as in major one! i tried to wait til tomorrow to post this so you other AI fans (like me) will be done watching the Results Show later. but my angst can't wait. they got rid of Chris!!! if katharine wins, i'll never watch Am Idol ever again, ever... i'm now hoping that elliot will win. i really love him, pero kulang nga ang "dating" nya. that's why i thought Chris will win. i really thought Chris will win... if Kat wins, it'll be like Jasmine Trias beating Fantasia Barrino. and that would really suck...

have a nice day!

sabi nga nila.. dance like nobody is watching... but do watch this!!! :D haay... miss ko na sumayaw. enjoy! :)

the way it goes

funny how nonsense conversations become serious... teasing leads to truth and before you know it, it comes crashing down at you. hoping you never asked the question in the first place and wondering if you really wanted to know or not. analyzing if knowing is better or worse. and though you know you're not being logical, you still can't rid yourself of the emotion brought by it. laugh all you want coz that's the only fair thing you can do. now whenever that thought passes by, you're electrified. can't tell if you're mad or disgusted or hurt. wondering if you should just cry or if it's better to scream and hit the wall just to lift that heavy feeling off your chest. hmm... worst, the more you try to NOT think about it, the more you think about it!!! mind over heart but you're going crazy.

word of mouth?

if you're from pisay, you've probably heard of the incident that happened last february, Valentine's Day, wherein a 4th year student, Gelyn Fabro, was rushed to hospital after being poisoned. quote from the OFFICIAL bulletin (released by PSHS), what happened was: "In the afternoon of February 14, 2006 (3:25 pm), Angelynne C. Fabro, a fourth year student, went to the school clinic to request paracetamol for her headache. She then went to the front lobby and drank from the water jug of a classmate. Shortly thereafter, she developed severe vomiting and abdominal pain. After the school physician examined her, she was rushed to the nearby Philippine Children's Medical Center (PCMC) by the school nurse who stayed until evening and left only when the patient's grandmother arrived." apparently, the water from the water jug was contaminated with a chemical similar to nitric acid, with ph- 1.41, Acidity 6%. her throat up to her stomach were burned, and she have to undergo dialysis every now and then. she was discharged from the hospital last March 17 and was said to be recuperating at home. i don't know what happened to her after that. if you want to know more, here are the official bulletin: Number 1, Number 2 and Number 3. now, i'm not here to blog about what's happening to kids these days or talk more about pisay, yada yada... on the lighter side actually, ganito kasi nangyari... this incident "resurfaced" in my life just yesterday when a friend said that there's news that the culprit, aka. Poisoner of Colemen, was already identified. Now, THIS is the "news". for a while there, i was thinking if it was a joke. but it seems though that the person who started the thread and most of the people who were commenting were dead serious. hahahahahah!! i haven't laughed this hard for a while! hahahahahahahaahahahahahaha!!!!!! the friend, who forwarded the "news" to me, was none other than PETER PAUL GADI himself! The Poisoner of Colemen!!! (haha! Puta, "Colemen" pa talaga eh!) Paul is a my friend, former-officemate/seatmate and former Pisay schoolmate, who graduated from high school 9 years ago. tuwing naghihiratan kami at naubusan na ako ng magandang hirit, sasabihin ko lang na "eh may dala ka ngang coleman nung high school eh! whatta dork!!", at yun tapos na ang usapan. tawanan na lang. hehe! it seems that the "news" came from this, paul's friend's blog. funny di ba?? how these things go around nga naman... i do understand their concern for Gelyn and what happened... but blaming the school for apparently hushing-up the incident and this "for-truth's-sake-he-did-it-so-you-should-know-and-condemn-him" thing (na OA para sa akin) is unfair and stupid. i know they probably thought that they're helping by saying the "truth", but do get your facts straight first. may nag-comment na nga, "The final results of an internal investigation have yet to surface pending an appeal. Law enforcement has been kept in the loop, with all parties being careful to protect the privacy of both the suspected perpetrator and victim as well as their respective families." remember, the people involved in this incident are minors. pero wala atang nakapansin, or naka-intindi?? anyway, Peter Paul Gadi as Poisoner of Colemen is still funny.. hwek hwek! he totally did it, btw! better send the police before he leaves the country again... :)

ze muzikals!

i love musical plays! :D i've been a fan of musical plays eversince i was exposed to them in early high school. the first one i watched was Batch 96's onstage version of "Once on this Island". it was followed shortly by Batch 95's rendition of "Les Miserables", which so far, is the only play who managed to make me cry. the next year, "Manhid" was shown. very few people know this play. the story is about 99 children born with superpowers and were named after our local mythical heroes, like Lam-Ang, Bantugan, etc. and of course, someone bad is after them. the songs were apparently composed by Eraserheads (when they were not so famous yet) and the song "Kailan" was from that play. in my freshman year in college, i saw "Rama at Sita" starring Raymund Lauchengco and Lani Misalucha. and just last year, i watched "Once on this Island" again but this time, (Kuya) Jeffrey Hidalgo, Kuya Bojie (of batibot, what's his real name again??), Michael de Mesa and Radha (of Kulay) played the parts. and last saturday, i was finally able to watch Zsa-Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal. it is definitely the funniest play i've seen so far (syempre di ba). i had so much fun that i decided to buy a copy of the program, the book and the soundtrack (in cd). too bad, Carlo Vergara wasn't there, i would love to have my book signed. anyway, in case you're wondering, Zsa Zsa was played by Eula Valdez. apparently, the seats i got was right beside the stage. i could have touched the actors if i wanted to. and considering that most of the time, Eula's butt was staring at me (they were nice btw). i liked the songs (composed by.. i forgot, but they were great) and the direction. (sige nga, alam mo ba pano nila ni-show yung nude scene and the giant palaka???). but don't expect much from the dialogue.. because if you don't understand what they just said, just check the book. they are the same... it was not bad though, but it's not as funny already (nabasa ko na yan e...) however, hat's off to the actor who played Didi! he was perfect! the scenes are not as funny when he's not in it. and it was hilarious to hear/see Eula say "Pak Yu!!" in a very jologs and baklain tone. Dodong however, was probably hired because and only because of his drool-worthy body coz he sure CAN'T act. the amazonistas were funny, but i think Wilma Doesnt (who played Dina B.) overdid it a little (too much hirits). and i would love to see Agot Isidro as Queen Femina sana, but she wasn't there. di ko tuloy naintindihan half ng lines nung Queen Femina. anyway, i still enjoyed the show so much and i would love to see it again. i've never been disappointed with musical plays and that's why i'm loving it more. too bad i missed Rent and Miss Saigon when they were shown here.. huhu...

tseri

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i am tired...

... of doing nothing and being nobody. what's hard with shifting companies while you're nowhere near the top of the corporate chain yet is you lose who/what you've become. in my case, i lost 2.5 years of "hard work". i admit that though i learned much and was mentally-challenged in ePLDT, the experience was not really something you'll call work. it was fun, too much fun to be considered work. and even if i greatly miss having that much fun, that's not why i'm griping now. the fact is, i am tired of doing nothing and being nobody. in ePLDT, i was a game developer for a year and then a "project manager" for 1.5 years. i did connectivity stuff, designed games, attended trainings, stood all day in conference booths and tried sell our games. i made timelines, handled people, assigned projects, interviewed applicants. i reported to him, him and him. i coordinated with this person and this. i was included in email trails with clients and knew what "my products" had, may it be a feature or a bug. my bosses value what i think. our partners/contacts knew me. and i'm even in-charge of planning gimmicks and ordering food whenever we eat out! when i decided to resign, i was expecting to start somewhere near the bottom again in that place where i'll move on. but when i applied here, they said that though i won't be getting the official title of "project manager", i'll be asked to handle, from time to time, a specific project and manage a small team of 3 people (half the size of the former team i was handling). officially, i'm a "software developer". it's been two months now, things are not looking up yet and i'm starting to feel uncomfortable. the most challenging thing i've done yet is minimizing file size, which most of the time, is just removing legacy code. i'm doing unwanted work, lots of small but unrelated stuff. i don't have any long-term tasks. most of the time, i don't know what i'll work on the next day. i have no idea what's happening to the product i'm supposed to be working on. i'm not really sure yet how many bosses i have and if i'm reporting to the right people. and worse, not enough opportunities are there for you to prove yourself and be somebody. i do not regret quitting my previous job nor joining my current one. but so far, i'm not getting what i bargained for and i'm already getting impatient (which is really bad). as you probably know, i've always dreamed of becoming a devoted homemaker (kahit na sabi ni mark, mukhang malabo na yun, :p). so i'm hoping that in the *hopefully* short time that i'll be working, i'll accomplish something and look back satisfied. it's just disappointing to learn that instead of helping me skip a level on the way up, this new job is making me take a few steps back instead.

ok ok, i'm tagged...

i was tagged by ET, mark and mika.. so here it goes... four jobs i've had in my life: 1. mobile game developer 2. project manager 3. mobile applications developer 4. err... four movies i would watch over and over: 1. Pirates of the Caribbean (johnny depp) 2. My Bestfriend's Wedding (julia roberts) 3. Love Actually (hugh grant, colin firth, etc) 4. The Notebook (rachel mcAdams, ryan gosling) four places i have lived: 1. 3 in Limay Bataan 2. 3 in Quezon City 3. 3 in Makati City 4. and i plan to live in tagaytay... hehe! four tv shows i love to watch: 1. CSI 2. House 3. American Idol 4. *edit* i can't believe i forgot, FRIENDS!!! four places i have been to on vacation: 1. Singapore (yung extended na 1.5 days, bakasyon na yun!) 2. Phuket, Thailand (extension uli, 1 day vacation) 3. Baguio (a lot of times already) 4. Los Banos, Laguna four websites i visit daily: 1. my google reader (then off to blogs with updates) 2. my gmail 3. my yahoo mail 4. umm... blogs lang talaga nisi-surf ko e. :D four of my favorite foods: 1. japanese food (teriyaki, yakitori, tempura, maki) 2. filipino food (sinigang, adobo, inihaw, sisig) 3. oil and garlic pasta in white sauce with ham and bacon (avenetto!) 4. steamed fish fillet with garlic (big buddha/superbowl) four places i would rather be right now: 1. in 5++ - star hotel room, where it is dark, real cold, with a big comfy bed and cable tv or lotsa dvds 2. bath tub full of bubbles 3. spa in tagaytay/baguio 4. any out of town gigs with my friends four people i'm going to tag: 1. jaemark 2. jam (para may iba ka nang blog uli bukod haiku ^_^) 3. hannah 4. mark (hiatus ka pa rin ba?)

sakura mind speaks

got a new template! well not really new, i just modified my old one (obvious ba? hehe!). it all started because i've been wanting to put my google reader clip on the sidebar, like what mark did on his blog (inggitera ako e!). basically, none of the designs went well with my old template. so i asked chris to choose a new background color for my blog which will match with clip. and everything else just followed.. had to match the color of the titles, links, etc... (it was all chris' doing, all i had to do was to agree or disagree with his, err.. work). i also asked him to put in a background image. i wanted to have either a cherry blossom tree or a known "sakura" character. then we found this page full of cherry blossom pictures and i fell in love with most of them. maybe if there's time, i could change the background image with a new picture. (di ba chris? hehe!) anyway, for now this is it. few more things will be changed though. hope you like it! (btw, mas maganda sya kung hi-res monitor mo. :D) ---------------------------------------------- Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal is back!!! i planned on seeing this show when it was first staged about a month ago. but all the tickets were already sold out just two weeks after the show was announced. luckily, a friend stumbled upon this site by accident. and based on Tanghalang Pilipino's Actor's Company's egroup, it really is back. i'm getting the tickets later. :D ---------------------------------------------- just 4 more episodes to go of CSI season 2 and i'm out. i'm still looking for a copy of the other seasons. anyone out there?? anyway, i'm now converting Flame of Recca and Tsubasa Chronicles episodes for my iPod. these will probably keep me satisfied for at least 2 months. hopefully, i wont be blind by then for reading real small subtitles. :D ---------------------------------------------- "this will probably hand you the biggest laugh of your adult life..." - from My BestFriend's Wedding but i'm seriously thinking of changing careers.. as in BIG change.. i want to be in a profession where i can help others, or make the world a-better-place-to-live-in-shit, first-hand. i'm thinking if i have the time, the patience and what it takes to be a doctor, a criminalist, or whatever. the funny thing is, as you can probably see, i was mostly inspired by my favorite TV shows like House and CSI. i should probably stop watching too much tv. my life is starting to feel like a TV sitcom.

defining the word...

half day now means " come to work at 12noon and stay 'til 9PM." damn i hate it when i get frustrated with what i'm doing and can't leave.

the evil in me

hey ***! i've been feeling real lousy lately. not sad.. . just lousy. 2nd case of QLC? well i must be 50 already! that would solve my previous problem then. i'm feeling this void in me, like i've lost something real important or missed something really great or did something really wrong. and though i *probably* know what's making me feel this way, there are no right words that can tell the story. anyway, i've been looking through my blog drafts and found this. it feels right to post it now. maybe this way i can sort out my feelings better and you'll understand. and i'll understand. and i won't feel bad anymore. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Created: Aug 3, 2005 3:16 AM i'm finally getting over this quarter-life crisis. i still haven't decided what i want to do with my career though. hehe! but i find that issue the least important at the moment. when i was undergoing my QLC, i was mostly angry. little things irritate me and i didn't care who i hurt. i hated my world. and i was hardest and harshest(?) to my closest friends. i realized... there were things in the past that have offended me, but i did not speak. and these things filled me up and i wanted revenge on everyone. anger was my excuse to release the evil in me. i am not a kind person, but i easily learn to care and love someone. when i love you, i will love you forever. but the more i love you, the harder it is to bear with me. it's because i ask you to be more understanding. *edit* and i thought, that of all people, you'll understand me most.

"things are never quite as scary when you have your bestfriend.."

if for some reason, you plan on giving me a gift (it's still my birth month anyway), then no need to fret because i'm easy to please. if you want to make me sooo happy though, you can give me a Calvin and Hobbes book. :) i've always loved this book but it was just recently that i decided to collect them. so far i have the: - Calvin and Hobbes Lazy Sunday Book - Something Under the Bed is Drooling - The Days are Just Packed - It's a Magical World And it's quite a collection too, because out of these 4 books, i only bought 1. the rest were gifts! yey! :D "it's hard to be mad at someone who misses you while you sleep"

a bunch of munchkins

Choco-Butternut:

happy birthday bestfriend!

have a great one, Mark! God bless you always! :)

Choco-Honey Dipped: i finally got my baby too!

isn't she cute? it was an unplanned purchase (long story) but i'm glad now i got it. i'll be poor for the rest of the month though... huhu... treats are much welcome. i just got the black silicon case yesterday. it's much prettier without the case, but at least she's safe now (*trying to remember how many times i dropped my phone*). And of course, i just had to put JJH's (of My Sassy Girl) very sexy Giordano Commercial. If you wanna see the whole thing, just IM me. Now i'm converting CSI and Friends episodes. Yey! Strawberry-Filled: i saw her picture. she looked so happy and she's happy, right? i do miss her. Bavarian-Filled: i hate having a cold. you feel real lousy but unlike the flu, measles, chickenpox, or any other non-fatal sickness, you have no excuse to stop doing what you have to be doing. they still make you go to work or school, it's just a cold. but you know that the only thing that would make you feel better is lie down, have soup and watch tv all day. *sigh* and great, now i have the cough too. Sugar Raised: i need a movie buddy. any takers? :D my "movie date" is not a fan and i am, obviously, the opposite. Last February, i didn't get to see any movie at all (i missed all the good movies!! huhu!). After Narnia, next movie i saw is V for Vendetta. i just saw it just last night and it was pretty good. Next, i wanna see is Rent (i have to still see it in the big screen), Nanny McPhee and North Country. Anything else showing soon? Tell me!

------------------------------------------------- so there, i'll have 5 of each, please. thanks! :)

happy birthday to me

First of all: Thank you to everyone who greeted me and wished me well for my birthday. Thank you na rin sa mga babati pa lang. :D ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So there, just like that, i'm a quarter-of-a-century old now. I'll say that this latest birthday is the least special and most boring one yet i've had in 25 years. No celebration (yet?), not much anticipation (di katulad ng dati, new year pa lang alam kong malapit na yung birthday ko), no gimmick on birthday night (and i had carinderia food for dinner, pathetic?), no surprises and no something special. Well wishes and greetings are the only things that reminded me it was birthday. Heck, a lot of people who mattered didn't even greet me. It was a little sad... no, not sad.. just disappointing. I hope birthdays won't be like christmases, wherein it becomes less special as you grow older. I hate to think that someday i'll feel that my birthday is just like any other day. Birthday ko yun e! di ba dapat ako yung star? kulang na siguro ako sa pansin.. hmm... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- well there, i'm 25 now. when i was younger, i thought that by this time in my life, i'll be successful, mature and content. i even thought that i'll be married by 26 which is suppose to place me in a long-term and stable relationship right now. i'm just not a fan of whirlwind romance though i doubt it'll even happen to me (and yeah, "whirlwind" means 1-yr or less). somehow, turning 25 makes me think of my so-called lovelife. let's see, this is how my past relationships (suitors, flings, M.U, boyfriend/s) stand now: 2 are married, 1 is getting married, 2 are in long-term relationships, 1 is alive somehow somewhere i dont care to know, 1 is around but already blew his chance, 1 who i really can't work with now, and 1 who is hard to place. I saw "Something's Gotta Give" last night in HBO. And i felt for Diane Keaton. You see my problem is: I really like Keanu Reeves, he's everything a woman could ask for. But for some weird workings of the universe, i still fall for Jack Nicholson. And my greatest problem is i'm not Diane Keaton, i'm not yet 50!

first day

it's my first day at work here in my new company. i've been here since 7:30a (no, i was not excited. nagkamali lang ako ng tingin sa relo.) and i'm out of here in 30 minutes. well, what can i say about my first day? it was f*#@E$ boring! i have no project yet, nothing to do, no boss and everyone else were busy with their own projects, therefore i hardly have anyone to talk to. first day blues. i never thought i'd ever look forward to start working. but i remain optimistic that there'll be so much more to learn and love. optimistic despite the downgrade of my work pc, the lack of privacy and leg space, the small desk chairs, the lack of ministop or afternoon breaks, the lack of sofa so you can sleep in the middle of the day, the lack of music and most of all, the lack of games. but HEY, i get free brewed coffee, 40-peso lunch meals, time and money saved from commuting, cardio-exercise from walking, fast internet connection and no more frickin' websense, mark, et and chris, and.. well, presence. i really hope that i'll learn to love this new job as much as i loved the old one. yun lang. (alis na ako. punta pa ako dating office para mag-dota e.)

it's official

and i'm starting to feel sad. like a hard habit to break.

i finally did it

... played Dota (outside the office) with people i DONT KNOW. Last Saturday, after Sam's dedication and drinking session in IC's, Celsus, Nikki, Alekos, Po and I decided to play DoTA in one of the netcafes in the area. I have been playing DoTA for almost 2 years now, but i have never played outside the office (except in Anino) and battle against complete strangers. The mode was -AP and it took me a while to choose my character (i was too scared to just pick randomly). Finally i settled for Phantom Assassin, one of my best characters, and did what i usually do. To make the long story short, my "strategy" didn't work there and i got beaten (they were always after me since ako lang babae and it seems i didnt know what i was doing. che!). Damn, i was the 3rd lowest scorer. Something i haven't seen in a while and and it hurt my ego. huhuh... So there, i have learned a few things in that game and i plan na bumawi next time. I just need a few more "practice" and prove i can be "1" in DoTA. Grrr... ------------------------------------------------------ ... resign from my job. Two and a half years of working in ePLDT... ayoko na!!! I had taken as much BS and corporate politics as i can just to get through it. And now that they are taking all the reasons that made me stay this long, there's nothing worth it for me here anymore. I will file my resignation next week and take a terminal leave starting end of january. I had been wanting to resign since 2003 but i have learned to love the people and my work. It is very hard to leave something you love and that's what made me stay. But most of the people and the work are gone and it's like starting all over again. So now before i fall again and lose the courage, i will resign now! congratulate me!!! :P ------------------------------------------------------- lots of things are happening around me lately. i have always been scared of changes. but i now accept that i am getting old every day and i have to start doing the things i want in life. i want to fall in love with a serious job, i want to go to places and become more mature. i have always loved high school but i know now that it is time to let go and "get out" of it.

new year things-to-do

1. start saving money!!! (i barely have a 10k savings account) 2. find a new job (a real job, maybe) 3. start that business we've been planning (please support us!) 4. learn to cook or learn wood working. (i should be more useful at home) 5. pay all my debts (damn credit cards!) 6. choose a sport and play 7. learn how to swim 8. get out of luzon and go to visayas or mindanao! 9. trim! 10. take a real vacation